The Lord must want me to start co-writing. It keeps coming up.
Before January of this year, I had avoided co-writing like the plague. Why? I guess I've always been a bit cynical about the outcome and even more cynical about the process. In my view, the difference between the process of writing by myself and that of co-writing has always looked something like this: when I write for myself I attempt to come up with the words that will most delight me; in a co-write I try to come up with the words that I hope will least offend what I perceive to be my partner's sensibility. Sound like fun?
But I don't feel that way anymore. I don't know what happened. My distaste for it simply vanished.
It might be that I wrote two records by myself. And yes, I was trying to prove something. But what I ended up proving (NOT my intent) was that it's lonely when you don't have anyone with whom to share your victory, or worse, your defeat.
Or--Lord I pray it's true--it might be that I'm in the foothills right on the border of that lovely country called Over Myself. If I am approaching that fair land, let's be very clear that God brought me to the verge of this country and on the way I got dysentery and my wagon caught fire--both clearly my fault. I can think of two modes by which God would have brought me safe thus far. One would be the aforementioned two albums' worth of trying to be Brian Wilson's heir-apparent only to find out that was a dumb dream. Don't argue. The other would be ten years' worth of producing, every day of which I've had to make the decision whether to appease my unholy ego or to render the best service I can to my artists.
I met with Charlie Peacock a few years ago and in his words I saw my next twenty years of spiritual and professional growth. He told me he believed in his own ideas more than ever but that never has he been less interested in pursuing them. Why? Because he has become so captivated with other people's ideas and because he has learned to choose loving his listener over flattering his gigantic brain. Yowza! Them's words to get excited about. Am I going to write my string arrangement all by myself today to prove that I can or am I going to ask the artist if she wants to sing some ideas together? Am I going to bristle when the producer says he doesn't like the first piano hook that popped into my head or am I going to get excited because that sounds like an invitation to go find something even better together?
Maybe that's why I feel like co-writing all of a sudden. Regardless of how I feel about it, it's the order of the day. Like I said, God keeps putting it on my plate right next to the humble pie.
Take, for example, the curious case of Kelly Rae Burton.
Kelly Rae Buuuuurrrrrrtooooonnnnnnnn. I elongate her last name so profusely because she's just that good. She's got a sweet country charm to her voice, somewhere in the neighborhood where she can borrow a stick of butter from Alison Krauss and a cup of sugar from Mindy Smith. And let me tell you, she has got the songs to throw at it! Her songs are so good I pretended they weren't just so she'd let me write more with her.
She came to Nashville and brought with her three or four songlets as she called them. A verse and a chorus and a shrug of the shoulders as to where they should go from there. She played me all of them and we picked one at random because they were all lovely.
We didn't pick out china patterns
Baby you and I were paper plates
We didn't rent a car
I don't recall a sunset
We took your old Ford
And made our escape
And I won't say the rain came down on our parade
But I won't say the dream came true
We set up camp somewhere in the middle
And we're still
Learning that love
Is something you choose
After I inhaled deeply and exhaled a few superlatives we went to work. The first thing we did because I am assertive to a fault was change the chorus. I didn't like "set up camp." It's a nice phrase but "up" and "camp" don't want to be sung together. We brainstormed a minute and changed it to "settled down." Not only did that phrase sing better, but a "down" metaphor was better than an "up" metaphor at conveying the emotion of the chorus. I also didn't love "and we're STILL learning" because the emphasis fell on "still," which didn't sing well enough or convey enough emotion to bear the weight we were placing on it. We changed it to "and we're HERE." The way "here" fit the melody created a nice sense of "well, I guess we're here and we're going to be here a while."
From this beginning, I already knew a thing or two about Kelly. First, she could receive criticism. Who cannot accept criticism? The insecure, unseasoned, and immature. I can say this with authority because I often have a difficult time taking direction and I am all of those things. Second, I knew she had a great sensibility about words and melodies because she felt just as I did the better-ness of lines that roll off the tongue and of metaphors that suit the sense of the lyric. This was going to be a good day.
Where to go from here? Sometimes writing verse two feels like starting over...but this time with constricting rules. "I found pants I like, but they're a weird green and now I have to find a shirt that matches." One thing we had going for us--this was a country story-song, so we knew we weren't going to go wrong just telling the next part of the story. I asked if we were going to write about kids or marital difficulties (they're one and the same, baby…one and the same). She chose marital difficulties because she felt it would lead us back to the chorus. Duh. I will now put a little extra space between this paragraph and the next to represent the interval of time we spent staring at the wall and mumbling to ourselves.
I didn't come up with any lines, but a framework popped into my head. The first half of this verse would be about those funny little flaws you discover in one another during the early years of your marriage and the second half would either be about some of the deeper flaws--the ones that hurt a little more--or would be about some of the things we come to value about one another. Kelly offered this as a start:
I'll never learn to cook
Like your mother
And you can't fix a car
Like my dad
And here I return to the subject of co-writing. Had I written those wonderful lines myself (though of course I wouldn't have written THOSE lines exactly) I would have smiled and thought, "Those are delightful." But because I was writing with someone else, we got to look at one another and say, "I love it! I love the way that the melody and phrasing make 'like your mother' sound like an eye roll!"
I came up with this to complete the verse:
But I can make you laugh
Like no other
And you bring a joy to me
I never thought I'd have
We found a little melodic change to lift those lines up and deliver the listener into the second chorus. And here is another reason I enjoy writing with someone else: when I sing my melodies they sound like me singing my melodies. It's fine. I'm just over it. What a joy to hear someone with a really lovely, winsome voice singing a melody I'm proud of!
So then it was on to the bridge. What is a bridge exactly? Well, it's not a verse and it's not a chorus. Andy Gullahorn would argue that in this sort of song the bridge is where time passes, but that requires a third and fatal verse which we weren't willing to write. So instead we opted for a simple sentiment:
Oh, it's worth it all
We have to believe it's worth it all
If we stand or if we fall
Tell me that love is worth it all
It's not earth shattering but with the melody we wrote it comes off as tender and heartfelt. Basically it conveys, "This thing isn't easy and some days I need reassurance that these tears aren't for nothing."
Are we done? Yes we are! We high-fived. We made a bad iPhone recording of our little baby song. We spent a few minutes sort of walking around the room of the lyric, testing the floor boards to make sure they held weight. Good. Done. We then proceeded to finish three or four more songs in about a day and a half. Crazy! And so fun.